Thursday, February 07, 2013 *************************************** NAMING NAMES ***************************** Q: You never name names. Why? A: In our environment naming names doesn’t work. Q: What do you mean it doesn’t work? A: Last time someone named names he was taken to court, his sources evaporated, he was found guilty, he suffered a stroke, and shortly thereafter he died. Q: His sources evaporated, how? A: They refused to testify in court. Q: Why? A: Obviously they didn’t want to lose their only source of financial support. Q: I see. A: That’s the way it has always been in our environment: those in power and the establishment in general have been invulnerable. This was true even in the Ottoman Empire and the Soviet Union. Even on the eve of the Genocide there were Armenians – and I don’t mean dupes -- who worked for the Ottoman and Soviet administrations, which means they supported the Sultan and the Young Turks. Krikor Zohrab, an eminent lawyer, diplomat, and intellectual leader was one of them – he was a close friend and supporter of Talaat who had him murdered in cold blood. I am myself personally acquainted with writers who make a comfortable living as secretaries of bishops. Do you think they will even consider testifying against their only source of income and start looking for another job? Who would hire them? Armenian writers are not exactly in great demand in today’s marketplace. But all that is theory. In reality it has never happened. We don’t have a system or cultural environment that supports individuals who place truth or principle above self-interest. And we have always had ruthless manipulators willing to take advantage of this situation. # Friday, February 08, 2013 *************************************** ON READING ************************** Q: What are some of the books you have reread more than twice? A: Lesley Blanch’s SABRES OF PARADISE, Toynbee’s RECONSIDERATIONS (volume xii of his STUDY OF HISTORY), and Sartre’s WORDS. Q: A strange trio. A: I forgot Nabokov’s LOLITA, and of course Zarian whom I have translated into English, and to translate a book is equivalent to rereading it ten times if not more. There may be others but these are the ones that come readily to mind at the moment. Q: What is it about Zarian that fascinates you? A: His daring and uncanny ability to say what you almost think…and his unique grasp of reality. Q: What about books that have changed your worldview? A: Dostoevsky’s IDIOT, Turgenev’s FATHERS AND SONS, and Suzuki’s INTRODUCTION TO ZEN BUDDHISM, all of which I read as a teenager -- and Plato’s DIALOGUES. Also Shaw’s plays, or rather their prefaces which are longer than the plays themselves. And Thomas Mann’s MAGIC MOUNTAIN. Q: Do you have a favorite genre? A: All of them – fiction, essays, biographies, memoirs, diaries, conversations, crime novels, encyclopedias… everything but poetry. I don’t remember to have ever read a collection of verse from beginning to end. Isolated poems now and then, here and there, but Milton, Dante, and T.S. Eliot, no! As for Pushkin: I might as well be deaf, dumb, and blind. I have always suspected that in poetry manner is more important than substance. Q: Do you think Armenians read enough? A: Somewhere Zarian says that what Armenians preferred to read at the turn of the century in Istanbul were best-sellers like Zevaco and Eugene Sue – whom no one reads these days. I know Armenians who love books for purely cosmetic reasons, to make an impression on visitors. I am beginning to suspect an Armenians’ greatest enemy is neither the Turk nor his fellow Armenian but the written word. # Saturday, February 09, 2013 ************************************** FROM CRADLE TO GRAVE ********************************** Gandhi once said you can evaluate a civilization by the manner in which it treats its animals – and, I would add, its writers. If you make a list of our writers you will be astonished to discover an astonishing number of them were either silenced, ignored and exiled or betrayed to the authorities, murdered and committed suicide. * Armenia has been called “the cradle of civilization” by an Irish academic who enjoyed the financial support of the Gulbenkian Foundation, the wealthiest foundation in the world, it has been said. But it would be even more accurate to call it its grave. * And speaking of Gulbenkian: Why did he leave only 7% of his wealth to Armenians? Did he know something we don’t know? Did he guess that if he were to leave all his wealth to Armenians, 93% of it would end up in the wrong pockets? I am not casting aspersions, just asking question and searching for answers. #

Sunday, February 03, 2013 ****************************************** DEAD END ********************* If I criticize the 1% it’s because I am on the side of the 99%. If I don’t enjoy the support of the 99% it may be because the secret ambition of most of them is to join the 1%. * Freedom of religion also means the freedom to brainwash children. If we don’t see the harm in that it’s because we live in a world in which subservience is valued more than freedom, intolerance more than tolerance, revenge more than justice, and ultimately war and massacre more than peace and coexistence. * On the day we learn to think for ourselves we may have a better chance to achieve solidarity not only with our brothers but also with our enemies. * Always treat today’s enemy as if he were tomorrow’s friend. * If I am different it’s only because I rely more on my own thinking than on the thinking of empty suits and bearded charlatans who make a comfortable living by deceiving the defenceless and the ignorant. # Monday, February 04, 2013 ***************************************** SOUND BITES ******************************** If Christianity has legitimized intolerance, persecution, torture, war and massacre, can we really say “There are good religions?” * I don’t believe in optimism. Hell, I don’t even believe in pessimism. In pessimism we construct a narrative that makes sense. But evil is incomprehensible. So is reality. That’s why every historian creates his own version of the past. * Does it make sense to say what’s theirs is bad and what’s ours is good when that’s exactly what they say too? * If you make a list of writers who preferred exile to life in their own homeland, you may end up with a who’s who is contemporary literature. * Our reality is so unbearable that my objectivity is sometimes confused with self-hatred. * “When we kill them it’s good; when they kills us it’s bad.” What’s the difference between this mindset and the one expressed by an African tribal chieftain quoted by C.G. Jung in his memoirs: “When my enemy steals my wives, it’s bad; when I steal his it’s good.” * To those who say “I don’t agree with you. Human beings are better than that; so is life.” All I can say is: “Enjoy your innocence (or is it ignorance?) while you can. It won’t last.” * How often do I find myself saying: “I would have agreed with you thirty years ago.” # Tuesday, February 05, 2013 ************************************** COMMISSARS OF CULTURE *************************************** Q: Who are they? Could we have a definition? A: They are Armenians who know what must be said and done but who want someone else to do it for them. Q: Why? A: The obvious answer is, they don’t know. They only pretend to know. They are bluffing. Just like their role models in the USSR who trusted Stalin more than Solzhenitsyn. Our commissars today trust more our bosses, bishops, and benefactors than our writers. Q: Why do they? A: My guess is they believe literature to be a dead end. No money in it. No power. No future. Our history is clear on this point: To write for Armenians is a waste of time. Q: Knowing this you go on writing, why? A: A good question, but I have a better one for you: Why do Armenians who are brought up to believe they are smart, progressive and civilized choose to behave like inbred morons when it comes to politics and collective action? More precisely, why do they support our dividers and grave-diggers? Q: You must have an answer to that question. A: I don’t! Unless of course we say they behave like morons because they are in fact morons. Q: I wouldn’t describe that as a diplomatic explanation. A: Literature is not diplomacy. Neither is it a profitable enterprise unless of course you decide to write about the Middle Ages and the massacres. But that’s a subject for another conversation. # Wednesday, February 06, 2013 ******************************************* ON BEING AN ARMENIAN WRITER ******************************************** Q: What are some of the positives and negatives in being an Armenian writer? A: Positives? None! Negatives? To begin with you work for nothing; you are treated like an unemployed and unemployable misfit, a mental masturbator; morons take it upon themselves to tell you what to write and how to write it; and worst of all, you are dependent on the charity of swine. A: Aren’t you afraid that by using angry words you may run the risk of undermining your own objectivity? A: I am more than willing to take that chance. Those who are against me will be against me even if I were to speak like an angel. And I have every reason to suspect if so far Armenian writers have been ignored it’s because they were afraid to go down into the gutter where our self-appointed “betters” and their dupes live. Some day if these gentlemen are unmasked, they will be exposed as bottom-of-the-barrel egomaniacal sociopaths and bullies who operate on the assumption that they know better and our only option is to say “Yes sir!” Q: "The Sultan is dead, long live the Sultan?" A: That’s true for Ottomanized Armenians. For Sovietized Armenians it’s “Stalin is dead, long live our commissars!” Q: Do you see a light at the end of the tunnel? A: For me, no! For those who may follow me, maybe. You never know…anything is possible. And they say I am a pessimist. What the hell do they know? #

Thursday, January 31, 2013 ********** …AND SO IT GOES ********** The aim of politics is power. The aim of literature is understanding reality. When the two meet, literature loses. And when literature loses, murder, war, and massacre become inevitable. * Writers are dreamers? Yes, but only in so far as they think they can survive in a fascist environment. * The attitude of the average dupe towards literature? “He is a writer? An Armenian writer? He must be a daydreamer. Let’s have some fun with him.” * Armenians are different from Turks? In their treatment of dissent they might as well be identical twins. * Dupes rate the lies of propaganda above the truths of literature. * One reason why our dividers are more popular than our dissidents is that the IQ of the average Armenian is a negative digit; which is why he is constantly reminded he is smart. * One of my most dedicated readers is a Second-Amendment gun nut and racist who thinks he fully qualifies as a commissar culture and based on that assumption he issues daily memoranda reminding me that unless I follow instructions I will never amount to anything. * When reason meets prejudice, reason is bound to lose. So what else is new? Mart bidi ch’ellank. # Friday, February 01, 2013 ********** AS I SEE IT ********** Some lies are so transparent that they might as well be confessions. * There are no more deep truths, only platitudes in fancy uniforms. * There are Armenians today who are pro-Assad. I have met some of them myself. What’s next?– being pro-Talaat? * To those who demand that I explain my explanations, I say: I have already done so in the past and I will again in the future. * Toynbee:“Comprehension sometimes consists in just a correct understanding of questions that are unanswerable." # Saturday, February 02, 2013 ********** ON OUR 1% ********** Why did Raffi say “we are sheep without a shepherd”? Why did Avedik Issahakian call our leaders “brainless”? And why did Zarian call them “useless”? Were all three wrong or dupes of enemy propaganda? * Baruir Massikian, a successful lawyer in Egypt in addition to being a brilliant writer: as he lay dying in hospital he was approached by a delegation community leaders who suggested he leave his considerable wealth (he was a bachelor) to an Armenian educational foundation. His reply:“I’d much rather leave it to a Cairo bordello.” Was he anti-Armenian or pro-Turkish?– two charges that are leveled against anyone who dares to refuse being a dupe. * Why do our academics prefer to write about the Middle Ages and the Genocide? And why is it that whenever someone tries to expose the corruption and incompetence of our 1% he is insulted by our superpatriots and experts on any given subject? * Please note that I am only asking questions. I am not making dogmatic assertions whose sole intent is to divide the community into members of the club and alienated degenerates. * I repeat myself and the 1% does not? * In the opinion page of my local morning paper a pundit begins his commentary with the following words: “We live, breathe and exist in an age of apocalyptic uncertainty.” If you were to ask one of our pro-establishment propagandists, my guess is he would say: “We never had it so good because we are in the best of hands.” #

Wednesday, January 30, 2013 ***************************************** SMART ARMENIANS ********************************** A smart Armenian is first and foremost a self-assessed Armenian and in all self-assessments propaganda speaks louder than reality. * Whenever I speak of reality I am accused of being pro-Turkish probably because for 600 years our reality was not ours but theirs. When it came to the most important decisions in life, it was they who made them. We had no choice but to say “Yes, sir!” They dished it out and we took it. And when our revolutionaries decided to change that, we all know what happened next: reality turned against us. * How long before we create our own reality? My only tentative answer: I may not live long enough to see it. * I have dealt with many self-assessed smart Armenians and they were all idiots. So was I for most of my life. Everything I say about Armenians is based on self-analysis. * Gentle reader: If you think what I say does not apply to you because you are different, I am more than willing to apologize. Every rule has its exceptions. I have even heard it said that it is exceptions that certify the legitimacy of a rule. My hope is that really smart Armenians will decide to step forward and get involved in our community affairs instead of conducting an underground existence. * Did I say really smart Armenians? Strike that. Make it honest Armenians. Because it doesn’t take a high IQ to see that we are on the wrong path and on our way to the devil. * A warning: If you are an honest Armenian and decide to be pro-active, don’t be surprised if accusations of pro-Turkish sympathies are hurled against you by moronized self-assessed Armenians. # Monday, January 28, 2013 **************************************** FROM MY NOTEBOOKS ************************************** Propaganda is as addictive as nicotine, alcohol, and opium. * The hidden message in all propaganda is, what you think is right and anyone who dares to disagree with you is an enemy agent. * Now Barabbas was a publisher and Cain a fascist. * Speechifiers and sermonizers end up believing in their own speeches and sermons. Arguing with them is like trying to enlighten a source of light. * There are times when I get so depressed by my fellow countrymen that the thought of death cheers me up. * Dissent means questioning the integrity of individuals who believe in their own infallibility. * Propaganda sticks to children like crazy glue. # Tuesday, January 29, 2013 ************************************ IRRELEVANCE ******************************** Even in a land of the brave and the free there will be cowards and slaves; and if not slaves to human masters than slaves to ignorance, prejudice, and lies. * Our men at the top know that the best way to avoid international scrutiny is by achieving irrelevance, and irrelevance is thrust on some as greatness is thrust on others. * Who after all gives a damn about Armenia? Not even Armenians. Who gives a damn about our 1,500,000? Not even Obama. Who gives a damn about our ongoing “white genocide” (exodus from the Homeland and assimilation in the Diaspora)? Not even our superpatriots who prefer to speechify about the eternal snows of Mt. Ararat. * God’s existence is as great a mystery to me as the Devil’s? # Wednesday, January 30, 2013 ***************************************** JESUS, MARX, FREUD ******************************** All of Freud may be said to be an expansion of the Biblical dictum: “The Kingdom of God is within you.” Or, the resolution of all your inner conflicts and contradictions are in your unconscious. * When Marx said “I am not a Marxist,” he was in a way questioning the legitimacy of all ideologies or closed systems of thought. * Einstein proved that all our fundamental assumptions about time and space are wrong; nothing is what it seems; a great deal of reality may be comprehensible but not everything. There are things we may never understand and explain. * What has been the most important contribution America has made to the world? Double-talk. To assert “All men are created equal,” and with the full cooperation of the Church to legitimize slavery. * What about Armenian contributions? Inbred morons pretending to be smart. * If the Kingdom of God is within you, so is the Empire of the Devil. #

Wednesday, January 30, 2013 ***************************************** SMART ARMENIANS ********************************** A smart Armenian is first and foremost a self-assessed Armenian and in all self-assessments propaganda speaks louder than reality. * Whenever I speak of reality I am accused of being pro-Turkish probably because for 600 years our reality was not ours but theirs. When it came to the most important decisions in life, it was they who made them. We had no choice but to say “Yes, sir!” They dished it out and we took it. And when our revolutionaries decided to change that, we all know what happened next: reality turned against us. * How long before we create our own reality? My only tentative answer: I may not live long enough to see it. * I have dealt with many self-assessed smart Armenians and they were all idiots. So was I for most of my life. Everything I say about Armenians is based on self-analysis. * Gentle reader: If you think what I say does not apply to you because you are different, I am more than willing to apologize. Every rule has its exceptions. I have even heard it said that it is exceptions that certify the legitimacy of a rule. My hope is that really smart Armenians will decide to step forward and get involved in our community affairs instead of conducting an underground existence. * Did I say really smart Armenians? Strike that. Make it honest Armenians. Because it doesn’t take a high IQ to see that we are on the wrong path and on our way to the devil. * A warning: If you are an honest Armenian and decide to be pro-active, don’t be surprised if accusations of pro-Turkish sympathies are hurled against you by moronized self-assessed Armenians. # Monday, January 28, 2013 **************************************** FROM MY NOTEBOOKS ************************************** Propaganda is as addictive as nicotine, alcohol, and opium. * The hidden message in all propaganda is, what you think is right and anyone who dares to disagree with you is an enemy agent. * Now Barabbas was a publisher and Cain a fascist. * Speechifiers and sermonizers end up believing in their own speeches and sermons. Arguing with them is like trying to enlighten a source of light. * There are times when I get so depressed by my fellow countrymen that the thought of death cheers me up. * Dissent means questioning the integrity of individuals who believe in their own infallibility. * Propaganda sticks to children like crazy glue. # Tuesday, January 29, 2013 ************************************ IRRELEVANCE ******************************** Even in a land of the brave and the free there will be cowards and slaves; and if not slaves to human masters than slaves to ignorance, prejudice, and lies. * Our men at the top know that the best way to avoid international scrutiny is by achieving irrelevance, and irrelevance is thrust on some as greatness is thrust on others. * Who after all gives a damn about Armenia? Not even Armenians. Who gives a damn about our 1,500,000? Not even Obama. Who gives a damn about our ongoing “white genocide” (exodus from the Homeland and assimilation in the Diaspora)? Not even our superpatriots who prefer to speechify about the eternal snows of Mt. Ararat. * God’s existence is as great a mystery to me as the Devil’s? # Wednesday, January 30, 2013 ***************************************** JESUS, MARX, FREUD ******************************** All of Freud may be said to be an expansion of the Biblical dictum: “The Kingdom of God is within you.” Or, the resolution of all your inner conflicts and contradictions are in your unconscious. * When Marx said “I am not a Marxist,” he was in a way questioning the legitimacy of all ideologies or closed systems of thought. * Einstein proved that all our fundamental assumptions about time and space are wrong; nothing is what it seems; a great deal of reality may be comprehensible but not everything. There are things we may never understand and explain. * What has been the most important contribution America has made to the world? Double-talk. To assert “All men are created equal,” and with the full cooperation of the Church to legitimize slavery. * What about Armenian contributions? Inbred morons pretending to be smart. * If the Kingdom of God is within you, so is the Empire of the Devil. #

Thursday, January 24, 2013 ************************************** WHY DO I GO ON WRITING? ************************************ That’s a question I ask myself again and again and I always come up with an answer that may make sense to me but no one else. * I write to settle a score, beginning with myself. I feel partly responsible for our leadership. I supported it for a number of years. I kissed its ass when I should have kicked it. * Our divisions go so far back in history that they have become invulnerable to dissent and criticism. It is also true that if a system is rotten it will fall if not tomorrow than the day after. Isn’t that what happened to monarchy, fascism, and Stalinism? * The reason our divisions have survived is that we have lived on the margins of history; and they have not so much survived as they have become, in Toynbee’s classification, fossilized. They are dead men walking. Case in point: by failing to unite the Armenian vote in America, our leadership has condemned itself to be a silent scream. No American presidential candidate will ever take us seriously so long as we divide our vote evenly between Republicans and Democrats. * As for our Turcocentric ghazetajis who pretend to be defenders of the Cause: so far all they have succeeded in doing is drive the Cause to a dead end. Their unspoken or real aim is not to get justice but to cover up the incompetence of the empty suits they work for. * A final note on Turks: they are not all butchers and murderers; they have their share of both as surely as we have our share of traitors, collaborators, and cover-up artists, # Friday, January 25, 2013 ***************************************** PARADOX *********************** We think with someone else’s thoughts and we believe by adopting someone else’s belief system. When it comes to the two most important things in life – thinking and believing, or that which makes us human -- we are more like apes than men. I think therefore I am not. * Our disagreements and conflicts are not ours but someone else’s. Neither are our wars. Only our victims may be said to be ours. * Absurdity is not a philosophical abstraction; it is embedded in our daily existence. * Question all certainties. Reject all dogmatic assertions. And never forget that what you borrow is not yours. # Saturday, January 26, 2013 *************************************** AS I SEE IT *************************** Our most popular school of criticism consists in slinging mud (such as pro-Turkish) hoping some of it will stick. * Identifying blunders in others can be useful only if it may help us identify our own. * Thirst for fame is the surest symptom of mediocrity. * Only pathological liars with political ambitions rewrite history in order to project a positive image. * A book is called bad or dangerous if it proves what you believe to be true is a lie. #

Sunday, January 20, 2013 *************************************** LIFE AND LITERATURE ********************************** Sartre is right. Literature saves no one. As a boy I entertained messianic ambitions. I know now that I cannot even make a discernible contribution to its salvation. * All I have been doing so far is drop a tiny pebble – or is it a feather – in the ocean of our millennial literature. * Compared to the sum total of my predecessors – from Khorenatsi to Naregatsi and from Abovian to Zarian – I am nothing. If they made no difference, can I ever hope to do any better? * Why do I go on writing? The only answer I can come up with is, to kill time and in the process to make a handful of friends who see things as I do. * The human body consists of billions of tiny particles working in harmony. There is life after death provided we don’t identify life as consciousness. * How much of “me” is in the cosmos? Or rather, how much of the cosmos is within me? Everything except my consciousness. If asleep I keep only a fraction of my subconscious (namely, the part that dreams) dead I keep nothing or the same degree of awareness before I was born. * Eternity exists but not as “I” but as something entirely different. How different? We will have the answer to that question only after we die. # Wednesday, January 23, 2013 ****************************************** PARANOIA ********************** For repeating what far better men than myself have said in their effort to solve our problems I am described as a pro-Turkish enemy. * They say nations have the leadership they deserve. No one deserves our leaders except perhaps Turks. * Propaganda is the opium of the people. * Where the dominant mindset is shaped by propaganda, there can be no progress, only gradual decline. * What a book one could write titled: ARMENIANS: SLAVES, VICTIMS, DUPES. * To be infatuated with one’s own prejudices is like compounding a felony. * The history of our literature is clear on this point: We don’t hate those who deceive us, only those who try to enlighten us. # Tuesday, January 22, 2013 ****************************************** REFLECTIONS **************************** There is nothing wrong in saying you were wrong. It means you are willing to move in the right direction. * An unspoken Armenian motto: “If you cannot reason, make a noise.” * A verbal avalanche is not always a valid counter-argument. * Depth and a facility with words are mutually exclusive concepts. * In our environment the more arguments you win the more enemies you make – enemies who will call you pro-Turkish because they cannot think of a worst insult. * We owe all wars and massacres to the propaganda of the 1%. # Wednesday, January 23, 2013 ************************************ AS I SEE IT ************************ If I believe in the absence of God I must also believe in His presence elsewhere. * In an environment where belief in propaganda is the norm, criticism of propaganda will be seen as a capital offense. * When I said I had been a dupe most of my life, a reader demanded: “How do you know you are not one today?” I don’t, and the moment you help me unmask my deceiver I may have a better chance to see the light. * The true atheist is not he who denies His existence but he who speaks in His name. * Dupes come in all sizes and shapes. In the latest issue of PARIS-MATCH I read the following headline: “Even Steve Jobs, creator of Apple, was victimized by a medical charlatan.” * You can recognize a charlatan by the fact that he proceeds from a position of infallibility. #